Month: May 2015

Our very existence

Look into yourself. What do you see? Do you look less pretty than you used to be? Do you see yourself a little wiser or see yourself only aging? Don’t worry what the mirror shows, it’s only a reflection on the outside. It’s only the beauty on the inside that counts.

Let’s talk about tonight at this moment. Nobody is thinking about me or you. What if tomorrow you or I do not exist. There’s a high chance that tonight I might perish. People who don’t know will call me “That poor soul.” People who barely know will tell stories of what a nice person I was. Those who know me well will mourn. So why do we exist? Is it to earn enough money so you can spend an Armageddon in a Lamborghini?

We live in a selfish world. Corporations are what’s bringing unhappiness. Everything which is limited will bring you down. If you run after money, you will run out of gas before you know. You will spend endless hours working your socks off while some earn more than you will earn in the whole year in an hour. Take life as a gift. Try living moments you will enjoy. It’s all in the way you see it. There’s a purpose of life which I think I’ve discovered.

Only the good die young. Not really. Do you think you will make a difference to this world? Go to a green field and look at a bug. Do you see yourself as it in this world? Well, we don’t live for others. We don’t live with expectation. If you think bad karma will get you to be reborn as a moth that lives merely hours, so be it. There is no pain in death. It’s like Lennon would say, “just jumping from one car into another.” We live to leave a legacy. We live to enjoy in our times of sorrow. What you earn does not live on but what you create does. Some sang for freedom while some took part in a revolution. The aim is not to live forever but to create something that lives on.

I feel like I don’t have much to live so I tell you, I hope my words will make sense to you and help you in creating a better world. Forget yesterday and live a life today because it’s only the present that counts.

The awesomest

She gave me a connection to the universe. She’s someone so skinny but hugs like a bear. It’s about a sister with whom I feel in love with at first sight. This is about the soul from the stairway. She’s my shrink, I’m at times her punching bag and yet with so many contrasting views she’s my best friend ahead of any other by a million mile.

Let me start on how it all started. I’ve always been a sapiosexual. I’ve always enjoyed the company of people with higher understanding and intelligence. I’ve always been influenced by a front man, only this time it was a woman. Very pretty even though she doesn’t think so, she is AS BEAUTIFUL ON THE INSIDE AS ON THE OUTSIDE. I first met her when I was having trouble with my girlfriend in a program we were cooperatively working on. As a shy person with a schizoid personality, I rarely made friends on my own. I was backstage and I was dazzled by the way she spoke. Even in our first meeting when we were just strangers, she gave me that confidence and made me feel better. She’s someone you should be around if you want all your troubles to disappear. She might not solve it for you but you’ll realise there’s nothing to worry at all and the situation will make sense to you.

A brilliant speaker and a brilliant writer, I will forever enjoy every word she’s put together. It’s amazing that I have such a good relation with her. I wish I could marry her. It’s quite impossible though. She surely sets that standard for my dream girl, someone so unique, lovable; both smart and sexy at the same time. Awesomeness overload. It amazes me how and when this happened that I was able to connect with her. I was able to tell her all my stories and talk so long till our jaws hurt. She’s a higher level human, part of a sensible race. Today she tells me she’s going to Germany. Though I should be happy for her, I feel awful. I’ve needed someone like her with me always so that there’s someone I could talk to in my darkest days of Mordor. I’ll miss her. I’ll miss those endless talks, those moments when she calls my sweetie and the most genuine, honest and warm hugs. :(((

I am absolutely sure there’s not going to be anyone who could make me feel as good as her. We rarely find people who say “Yayy, its raining” and we go ahead and dance when it pours. There’s not going to be anyone who would smile while I talk. She is my favourite person to have coffee with. No one has convinced me to go after the impossible like her cause she made me realise my potential. She made me forget that I was broken. I’m glad that even though it’s been a short while, I’ve had the absolute best moments with her. There’s so much I’ve wanted to learn from her and to develop a cool personality as hers but I guess this is the point from where I take it ahead myself. The thing I’m most grateful for is that even though she’s been the busiest of activist and writer, she’s been there for me. After all, time is the best gift anyone could offer and she offered me tons.

Thank you dijju for everything and take care. Perhaps it’s time to show that you’re the smartest even in the other side of the world. So much maya. I wish you the best. ❤