This need, this greed, this feeling of remorse that I could have taken a better decision has haunted me more than anything else. I put myself under this circumstances. I made a decision and now I see what it would have been like if I’d taken the other road. For a while, it felt like I was between the devil and the deep blue seas, but things have eased now. I’ve made a choice which I felt has pelted me, but I feel fine now. I’m not confused anymore. I’m glad I made the decision to stay and it disgusts me that the thought to leave ever occurred. I’ll tell you a little something about loyalty that football has taught me.
Being a fan of Tottenham Hotspur is hard. The best Spurs players in recent years have left for bigger clubs. It was sad to see players like Michael Carrick and Dimitar Berbatov leave for Manchester United, and Luka Modric and Gareth Bale leave for Real Madrid. I understand that they left for a better team, but I wished they’d stay. I always wished that these players would dream the same dreams I had, but they had other plans; bigger plans per se. It disheartened me when they left but I’d told myself, “If such situations ever come, I’ll show the world loyalty”. It is hard knowing that your life could have been better if you had left your place and settled somewhere else, but I’m rather glad I’m having to face this situation where I can prove my loyalty and show the world that love is all you need. I cannot settle for somewhere better and leave the people who surround me and who nurtured me. I can’t leave my home and people I call family.
Everyone admires someone like Steven Gerrard who spent his entire career at Liverpool from his days as a teenager to the point he couldn’t fit into the club’s plans. Everyone applauds him, the hero of Anfield. There were times at the club where he made wonders happen. It must have been hard for him to see players like Fernando Torres and Luis Suarez leave for a better place where he could have settled as well, but he stayed, never having any second thoughts. Only a few people will forever remain in people’s hearts and he is such a person. He could have fitted into any team in the world, but Steven Gerrard never left Liverpool. We all applaud him, but did we learn anything from him? Well, I’ve learned something called loyalty. He could have left for any team in the world that would pay him well and win trophies with them, but he stayed for the fan and at a place where he comparatively won almost nothing but won the hearts of the people, not just Liverpool fans but everyone.
How I wish that everyone was as understanding and had a clear heart to comprehend that you will never grow bigger than the place you grew up in. If you’ve got a place you look back and feel sad, it’s probably because you were lured into something and you abandoned your place. You know you were selfish to leave even though it was for your benefit. I know it’s necessary to grow, but love never dies and leaving home will haunt you always. My friends and family are safe with me and I’d rather be betrayed than betray. People need to learn how to settle and stay loyal. Don’t let someone else sway away with your happiness. Stay with your heart and live a life just as you imagined.
Never leave home.